World Race Training Camp: A Series
Part Four: Goodness & Love
So, a while back (maybe a year?), I heard of a book called Dangerous Prayers by Craig Groeschel. Now, if you know me, you probably know that I do not like to read. But I really like Craig Groeschel, so I read some quick bullet points & listened to a couple sermons about it instead. One of the ‘dangerous prayers’ mentioned was “God, break me.” I thought about it a lot, but never really truly prayed it.
At training camp, the thought came up again. “God, break me.” This time I prayed it and I meant it. I wanted God to break me apart, show me the nitty-gritty, cry my eyes out, etc. I wanted to be wrecked by Him, so He could put me back together more beautifully. And I was prepared and ready for whatever that looked like.
But it didn’t happen.
Instead, God showed me His goodness and He showed me His love.
My view of God’s goodness just kept expanding. Every time I thought, “Wow, God is so good, I can’t believe this just happened,” something EVEN BETTER would follow right after. Some things were little, but some were HUGE. Like ‘I’ve been praying for this for over a decade and it finally happened’ huge. I was (and forever will be) in awe of how good He is. And the best part is that He keeps. getting. better.
Within these moments of realizing His goodness, I was also reminded of His love. I kept picturing the ocean and thinking about how big it is. Just think about it. The ocean is BIG. Like really big. It’s so deep. So wide. And when viewed from the shore of a good beach, it looks like it never ends. Now the fact that God’s love for us is bigger than the ocean?! Mind blowing. I can’t even begin fathom it. I stand in awe, yet again.
Anyways, God didn’t answer my prayer the way I expected. I’m sure He will sometime. But, for now, His answer was, “I don’t want to break you, I just want you to be still and let me love you. I want to show you who I really am.” And WOW He sure did.
I am excited for whats to come because I know God. He is good and His love abounds. Each time I think something is good, He will continue to show me that He has something better.
So my prayer is patience. That I may be patient in the waiting. Because when whatever I’m waiting on finally happens, I know God will make it better than I ever could’ve imagined.
Thank you, Father, for your goodness & love. Thank you for showing it to me time and time again even though I don’t deserve it. I pray that each person reading this would run to you to feel your love and soak in your goodness. Thank you, Jesus, for freely giving us these gifts. That we don’t have to do anything to earn your love. But instead, we can lean back in your arms and be loved.
**That got pretty deep & I don’t necessarily have a pic from training camp to depict the topic covered, SO enjoy this pic of our slip n slide & Katelyn getting hosed down hahahah
AHHH this is so good i have chills. thanks for sharing. GOD IS SO GOOD. and he just keeps getting better. so excited to get to bask in his goodness with you this year!